That familiar sound of the alarm
clock woke me
up yet again. I sighed, and for a
actually considered just going
back to sleep.
“ZAC! You up yet?!” I could hear
“Yea, I’m getting there.”
“Well hurry it up! We
gotta be on the
plane in an hour!” Tay
I didn’t even
was here yet. What time was it?
Ezra started to wail. I gave up.
I had to get up sometime.
I slipped on some jeans and
my “Jesus Loves Drummers”
shirt. Sometimes I wish I would
have gone for a normal lifestyle.
Don’t get me wrong. Being in
a band with my two brothers
is great, I couldn’t ask for
anything better. But sometimes
it gets real tiring. Sometimes
I want a day off from it all,
you know? It’s a little worse
when we’re on tour. No matter
how much I love music, there
will always be days when I
could go without performing it.
“ZAC!!” Ike was obviously not in
a good mood this morning.
“Hi, there.” A voice whispered.
I was startled. I hadn’t even heard
anyone come in.
“Hey Kate…uh, you coming with us?”
“Sure am.” We’d been dating for
over 3 years and…well, I was
starting to have second
thoughts about staying with her.
She wanted to get married but I
just wasn’t sure if she was ‘the one’.
“Zac?” she asked, one of those
puppy dog looks on her face.
“I love you,”
I froze. I know this sounds weird but,
in 3 years, that was the first time
she’d ever said that to me.
“Uh…yeah, I, I know…” I managed
to get out. Man, I couldn’t even
bring myself to say ‘I love you’ to
my own girlfriend of THREE YEARS!
How bad of a boyfriend was I? Her
smile faded and she opened the
door and slammed it shut. Shit.
I went after her but Tay stopped me.
“What did you do now?”
“Nothing, I just, she, I don’t wanna
talk about it alright?”
“Listen, you better straighten it
out with her, or you’re gonna
lose her.” He reminded me
for the 100th time.
“Yeah, yeah, I know! I just…I
don’t know, ok?” Ike walked
over to where we were talking.
”You guys ready?” he asked
impatiently. He wasn’t looking
so good. I couldn’t figure out
if he was sick or upset. Well,
he must have read my mind
because he smiled some sad
excuse for a smile.
“I’m fine. Really.” he said,
punching me in the arm.
Just by saying that he convinced
me of the opposite.
“Let’s head out,” Tay ordered.
He took care of all our luggage
on a big rolling cart, like the
ones in hotels, Natalie picked
up Ezra, and we all slumped
sleepily out, one after another.
When we got outside there
were hundreds of fans waiting
for us. Camera flashes went off
everywhere, and the earsplitting
screams could have been heard
“ZAC, I WANT TO CARRY YOUR BABIES!!”
one fan screamed at the top of her
lungs. Oh, god. Some fans really get
on my nerves, to tell you the truth. She
really wants to have my kids? I’ve
never said a word to the chick
and already she wants to sleep
with me. Its fans like that that
make me want to retire early. There
are plenty of good fans, though,
and I do love my fans, I really do.
It’s just, if they want to meet me so
bad, why do they not say a word
when they finally do? It doesn’t
“Zac, come on, get a move on.”
Natalie said from behind me.
“Oh, yeah, sorry.” What was
with me today? I couldn’t seem
to keep from drifting off into
my thoughts. We finally got into
the bus and watched all the
screaming girls disappear.
Kate came to sit by me, but I
really wasn’t in the mood. I
threw on my headphones with
“Underneath” playing. She
moved away, not looking
happy at all. I wonder if it
bothers Ike that I date her. It bothers
me that I do that to him. When
she cheated on him, I hated
her. I don’t know how it all happened.
We just kinda ended up together.
Ike had his head in his hands,
and Taylor and Natalie were
cooing Ezra. It must be nice
to be so young and not have
a care in the world.