I felt a tap on my shoulder.
“Zac, wake up. We’re here.”
I couldn’t comprehend right
away where I was at.
“What? We’re where?” I opened
my eyes groggily. Kate’s eyes
were staring back at mine.
She seemed to be trying so hard.
I knew she could tell something
was up with me. But her being
in my face wasn’t helping her
situation at all.
“The airport! Where did you think?
Come on, get up, we gotta get on
the plane.” She helped me up
and I followed her outside. The
sun shown bright in my eyes and
I could hardly keep them open.
I wished I could close my ears
as well, because once again,
there were countless screaming
fans waiting for my brothers
and I. But there were less this
time, that was for sure. It was
nice to get into the airport, where
my eyes didn’t feel like they
were burning out of my head.
A couple dozen fans had gotten
into there, though, too.
“Oh my gosh, there they are!”
I could hear one of them gasp.
“Zac!! Can I have your autograph?
Oh and a picture? Well, a couple?”
another asked me.
“Uhh, yeah, sure...” I said, still half
She squealed with delight and handed
me a pink pad of paper and a
pink pen. Gee, I wonder if she liked
pink at all. I jotted my signature
down and wrote:
“Thanks for sticking with the music.
See you at one of the concerts, hopefully.
Are you listening?”
It was corny but, I thought it was
the least I could do to make it sound
as personal as possible. She grabbed
her camera and snapped 3 or 4
pictures, blinding my eyes yet again.
Then she and her friend came with
their arms around me and snapped
another round of pictures.
“Ok, well uh, I have to go now…
you guys be good and uh, keep
listening to the music, k?” What the
hell was that? I must have been
real tired if that was the best I could
come up with to say to a fan. They
screamed again and ran off, probably
to develop their film as fast as possible.
I know it sounds like I don’t like my fans,
but I really do love them. Its just,
after so many, it gets to be a routine
thing and at times it was a little
annoying, especially when I was
in a bad mood or tired as hell.
“Zac, over here, we got everything
in order. Let’s go.” Kate called.
I had so much on my mind I thought
it was all going to fall out of my
ears. I followed them onto the
plane and sat by the window. I
was thankful when Ike sat next to
me before Kate had the chance.
When she got to where we were,
though, she looked a little hurt.
“Ike, do you mind if –“
“Actually, Kate, uh I gotta talk to Ike,
so…maybe on the bus or something?”
She looked at me for a minute, then
took an empty seat a couple rows back.
“Zac, if this is about the what
happened between me and Kate,
I’m over it. Really. I’ve moved on.”
Ike was looking at me concerned.
“Believe me, Ike, it’s definitely not
that.” I sighed and lay back, closing
my eyes. But there was no way I
could get to sleep. All around me,
voices were buzzing.
“Taylor, for god sakes, where did
you put the diaper bag?”
“Isaac, can you put your seat up?”
“Zac, can we talk?” My heart
skipped a beat. I’d heard those
words before. And nothing good
ever followed them. Even if something
was going on between me and
Kate, I didn’t want to start something.
“Uh, yeah…what’s up?” I asked,
my eyes still closed. My head was
spinning at a million miles a minute
and I had the migraine of 20 men.
“Um, do you think we could, you
know, get some privacy?” I opened
my eyes and Kate was staring at
me with that hopeful look again.
I threw myself up and led her to
the bathroom in the back.
“Zac…I have to tell you something….”
I could tell something was wrong by
the way her voice quivered when
she talked. She refused looking me
in the eye.
She continued, “I…I’m…pregnant.”
For that moment, the world stop
turning. I looked at her, trying to
decide what to say. But I couldn’t
speak. I just sat there like an idiot,
staring at her open mouthed.
Tears began scrambling down
her cheeks like wildfire, and before
I knew it, she was on the floor,
crying as hard as she knew how.
“It’s…it’s ok, Kate…we’ll work this
out…” I couldn’t even begin to
find the words to comfort her.
Hot tears sprung to my eyes. What
was going to happen now? I couldn’t
leave her with my child…everything
began to spin and my eyes went dark.