I went straight into the bathroom and
slammed the door, locking it behind me.
Kate was banging on the door.
“Wait, Zac! Can we please talk about this?!”
she cried. I could hear Taylor softly ask her
if they could talk in the other room, and then
heard them leave. I turned and faced
“How long have you known?!” I screamed.
How could she do this to me? Just keep it
from me? I wondered if this whole thing had
been planned for weeks. My mind was
going crazy – I didn’t know what to think!
Natalie stared at the floor.
“She told me while you guys went to eat,”
she confessed. I could feel my face getting
hot, but then I realized something.
“Is that what you were trying to tell me in the
room earlier?” I asked. She nodded, and
tears found their way down her face like
bullets. I put my hand over my forehead
and sat on the cold, tile floor. I felt like
the biggest idiot in the world. Finding
this out was worse than when I thought
she was pregnant. I was so bewildered.
This sure was one hell of a day. The
whole day had been drama, drama,
“Nat…I’m not mad at you. It’s not your
fault,” I choked. That’s when I began to,
yet again, feel my eyes well up with tears.
I ran out of the room and found Ike still sitting
on the couch. He looked at me, his eyes
saying everything that needed to be said.
“Ike…I…I’m sorry…” I managed to get out.
I felt horrible. I should have known that
if she had hurt Ike, she’d hurt me as well.
“What? No, are you kidding? Listen,
Zac…you can’t keep blaming yourself
for everything that happens lately. How
could you have seen this coming? Exactly,
you couldn’t have. It happens, it’s ok.”
He sighed. “Today’s been rough, I know.”
Suddenly the bus stopped…we had
arrived at the hotel. I forced myself up
and grabbed my luggage, rushing off
the bus. Ike and Tay followed, then Natalie,
with Kate slumping behind. Our bodyguards
brought up the rear. When I got into
the room, I practically fell onto the bed,
going into a fit of tears. Thank god I
was sharing this room with Tay and Ike,
instead of Kate. She and Natalie were
bunking together, along with Ezra. Our
bodyguards had a whole room to
themselves as well. At that moment,
one of the bodyguards walked in.
“Sounds like there’s gonna be no show
tonight, guys. It’s a good thing we chose
a hotel outside of the city, because
Amsterdam’s blacked out.” He announced.
I sighed in relief. There was no way I
was going to be able to do a show that
“I want Kate sent home.” I muttered.
“I’m not paying for her to stay here.” Ike
and Tay looked at each other.
“Come on,” Tay said, “Let’s go get some
food.” I slipped on my jacket and we left
“I’m gonna get Nat,” Taylor told us as he
slipped into the girls’ room. I could hear
Kate whine and beg to come. I prayed
that he wouldn’t give in. But when the
door opened, it was just Taylor, Natalie, and Ezra.
I’d have to remember to thank him for
that later. We decided on the restaurant in the lobby
of the hotel and went to get a table.
“Name?” the hostess asked.
“Taylor,” we all said. Just incase there
was a big group of fans, we didn’t want
Hanson being called out for all to hear.
I was definitely not in the mood to be
interrupted. I just wanted to eat like a
normal person tonight.
“Alright and…there are 5 of you?” she
asked as we all nodded. “Ok…and I’ll
get you a highchair for the little one.”
She added. We sat down to wait. Within
10 minutes we heard, “Taylor, party of 5?
Taylor, party of 5, your table is available.”
Standing up, we were greeted by a tall
waiter and led to a booth. I picked up the
menu and looked at the food choices.
Hmm, three cheese lasagna, chicken Alf
redo, ravioli, chicken Brian…I decided on
the latter. The waiter came back to take our
“Dr. Pepper,” we chorused.
“And, could you make mine a diet?”
Taylor smiled. “And I think we’re ready to
order our food.” The waiter nodded and
we all took our turns ordering different
types of Italian food with strange names.
Our food came fast, and we ate that
way too. Once we were all done, we
didn’t really feel like sitting around, so
we paid the bill and went back upstairs
to our rooms. When we got back, I noticed
an envelope on my bed. Oh, shit. Written in black
pen, the front read two words: For Zac.